Ratu Sangga Say.............

If from the beginning I was born in this world to be successful why is hard to try as many trials as I passed. I'm just an ordinary girl who has a limitation to be patient because I am just an ordinary girl.. 

The past is very beautiful. I always get what I want. but since this all started from the "displacement" .. early adolescence have all originated in Jakarta City. casual finally got depressed even though I have many friends there and I used to but my beautiful future was ruined because of something so stupid that I ended up moving back to Bogor City. the town is so boring because of the birth I've been there .. but I was used again because I found a man who I love .. over time even though I enjoyed my day with no status. but I was just comfortable .... until finally the problem one by one came and he left me a little bit slowly. I was beginning to hate on "transfer" up to now I still can not control my emotions. 

Now my question:
1. whether I will get true love?
2 . whether I will feel the beauty of this world?
3 . if the question above the answer: "no", I could not return to heaven again?